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So I turned to the Internet. For months, I scoured sites like SexAndSubmission.com for information, stimulation and a strange kind of comfort. It was a safe way to explore my complicated roil of emotions without exposing myself to more of the manipulation and hurt that had characterized my affair. And I found a measure of peace in being able to acknowledge, if only to myself, that a commanding voice and the opportunity to submit had a certain effect on me. It was reassuring to realize that there were others out there who clearly felt similarly.
Nowadays, I look at porn only occasionally, and I'm no longer obsessed with submission; I know that it's merely one aspect of my sexuality. But I'm glad for the time I spent online. Internet porn allowed me to indulge my sexual proclivities safely, so I could get on with the rest of my life. I don't feel ashamed about that. I feel grateful.
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