Hi, My Name is ..... and i am A FOODAHOLIC

I prayed to God, in March of 2009 to please help me lose weight before my 18th birthday,  and i  lost 40 pounds in, drum roll, in 3 months, woop-e-dee-doo!!! fire works, the usually comments "girl you look great", "wow you're so pretty", "good job". I soon saw myself as sort of a diet guru, giving my family members superior  looks when they gobbled down junk food,like "yeah that looks good, but thats a no-no in ma diet" while i sipped on some, green tea or water. I was really ready to show of the improved me, rocking the figure hugging outfits(to the envy of my fellow classmates) and yes i had the "i'm walking on sunshine song" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1yUJx1zGeI&feature=related playing in my head.
 But then one day, i decided to take a break from my strict food measuring, 1000 calorie a day, non processed foods, no meat, nothing fried diet. and i had myself a cookie. Now three months later, probably 40 pounds heavier once more, eating, and dreaming of everything edible that passes me by( i eat approxiamtely 10 times a day) I am wondering what happened, even though i know what happened. I've tried to get back on the wagon, eating everything in moderation,(not working), exercising, no time, and everyday i'm packing on  the pounds.
 Sometimes i feel alone, and no one understands what i'm going through, i wish i could stop eating so much but its like i'm addicted, i cant think straight without eating, my entire life revolves around eating(i agree i'm scaring my self too) I'm going coo coo bananas.!! I feel embarrassed that i let myself go like that. I see the snide looks that people give me as I walk through the halls of my high school(forgive my preoccupation with public's perception of me it's a teen thing). My family memebers try to give me support, in the best way they know how to but i don't thing they understand what exactly i'm struggling with.  feel like a failure for letting it happen. Everyday I wake up with hopes that today will be better than tomorrow, but I feel worse and worse. Sorry to dampen the mood on  the site with my issues,  I keep hoping that i lose weight again before it is too late but i dont know if i can.